I want to be a kid again

I have decided that I have gotten old enough and will now be remaining the age of 23. There was this little guy sitting next to me on the plane today going to a national hockey tournament. I wish I could have done that. Not necessarily hockey, but volleyball? sure! softball? Damn Yes!

I am honestly pooped and there was no love for me in the SDS, so I'm off to Toronto. We'll see what happens. All I want is to make it past the prelims. Think good thoughts on Saturday!!! Oooo.... and Tony needs to change his pants - anyone who sees him, please remind him, since I won't be home for a few days.

Here I go...

I've rather mixed feelings about all of this. On one hand, I know I'm a capable harpist. On the other, what are we all thinking trying to learn millions of tiny black dots on a page just so that we'll have a reasonably secure existence? Seriously. Seriously! I'm excited, but a bit anxious too. I leave tomorrow, and didn't have the most awesome lesson today, but I have faith in my playing just as Sarah does. I'll give ya'll updates! Here I go! Here I go...

one week left

For those of you who've kept up with me in the past few weeks, my life is in upheaval. Suddenly, there are not one, but TWO auditions that I am taking - on opposite sides of the continent. Life is certainly hard between practicing for those and concerts and all the other blah-dee-blah that comes with the season of May.

I'm not at the freak-out stage yet, but my heart certainly is beating fast these days and nothing seems good enough. The bad thing is that there's two more weeks until this adventure is over. The good thing is that there's two more weeks until this adventure is over.

Last Day of Classes

Obviously, I can't say its my last day of school (like Kat and so many of my other colleagues), but today did mark the end of my trauma for this semester. I am finally done with my academics (next semester is purely ensemble and mock audition, thank God!)!!!! But on to more juicy info...

I am crazy. Seriously, what possesses someone to take on two auditions in the same week back-to-back? San Diego Symphony and Toronto Symphony are the only two who have major harp auditions announced in the last year, and they put them on the same week? Who's move was that? I hope they are no longer working for the organization so that everyone else is thinking, "what were they thinking?" Geez!! I'm practicing my butt off and still feel like a dope, but hopefully I will make it past the prelims at least one of the times. That's my goal - pretty reasonable, no?

And I have to apply for school to give me more money next fall, because I cannot handle another tuition hike. Its like having a second rent payment every month (and not a cheap one). I think schools should pay us to come! We spend endless hours there, not making money, and more hours outside - trying to make money so we can keep spending hours in there not making it. Come to think of it, why am I doing this? (Oh yeah, so I can make more money some day and give it back to the school) Hmmm.... not doing so well on the positive wagon tonight. Sorry